Tiny teardrops rolling down on cheek… throat choked !
I always get this sinking feeling after Ganesha immersion 😦
The devotees are inching towards Visarjan Ghat and I start my return journey with heavy heart…
Last 10 days…… There was this unknown euphoria that comes with Lord Ganesha’s majestic presence… We pour our heart out in worshiping as if a guest has come down to visit !!
I couldn’t resist to take a deep breath….
The divine thoughts….. the holy atmosphere… the vedic chants….. the verses……. the ultra pious days indeed !!
I look back to the river bank again & again…..
Ganesha – The God of wisdom and the God of all pervading Consciousness !
त्वमेव प्रत्यक्षम् तत्वमसि
त्वमेव सर्वम् खल्विदम् ब्रम्हासि
त्वम् साक्षात् आत्मासि नित्यम्……..
Goshhh… I am not very good in bidding good-byes ….
Memories of my Ganesh idol flashing in front of mind’s eye !
The straight-into-my-eye expression when I brought him home…. The pleasant appearance…. The hand raised to grace the seekers…. The metaphors of goodwill spread all along the body…. The subtle smile after daily Pooja…. The luminance on face … The spiritual radiations emitted ….
Now I had collected the cloak as his blessings.
The road back seems all uphill. Its tad difficult to take even one step at a time.
He came as a guest, showered happiness, grace & reverent feelings, accepted fondly whatever small things I could offer in my capacity and…… chose to leave today – with a promise that he will come back next year !
I come home with misty eyes and look at the very place where he stayed for last 10 days…. The form has gone but formlessness has stayed back….
The worship has to grow now…. beyond the realms of physical world… till next Ganesh Festival…!!
I sit in secluded room…. at far distance I could faintly hear the drumbeats & music – accompanying the immersion procession !
I choose to close eyes and with strong intent remember my Ganesha… Time to get submerged into his real abode..